Hydrate.

Oh, Lord. 

Where in the heck do I even begin to describe my first 9 days at camp? And for those of you who don't know, a week at camp feels like a month..in the best and worse way. Seriously..this blog might have been a bad idea for me..I won't be able to convey what is going on at all. But maybe that is a good thing.

I am full of contradictions. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. I am completely alone in a new world, yet constantly surrounded by a new family who loves me and already knows much of my story. (mmm..gotta love those three hours of vulnerability and trust) I don't know who I am but I'm always learning more about the Lord. I don't know what I believe but I'm learning that slowly. I'm struggling with problems and sins I never acknowledged or thought I was done with and God is wrecking shop in my life. He really is testing my anxious thoughts, seeing if there is any offensive way in me, and leading me into the way everlasting (psalm 139)

ok..here is the thing. I have no idea what I'm saying right now because I have no idea how to convey how much God has been doing without writing a novel..so you guys are out of luck. Plus, I just don't feel like writing but since this is the first and only time I will be on the internet for quite some time, I figured I would write something...

Oh, but the reason I titled this "Hydrate" is because of the summer camp's theme. Its all about God's salvation and the Living Water of Jesus. Everyday has a different theme and its legit. Thirst. Satisfy. Cleanse. Drink. Sweat. 

It's seriously so awesome..have a blast figuring out those analogies. 

Alright..i'm sorry this blog is horrible. Definitely not one of my best. Although  this blog thing was a good idea, I doubt I will have much time to write in this. That's another thing I'm learning: putting the Lord and others in front of my own desires. And I'm coming to the full realization of how selfish I am.  

One last thought: John 14:14 "You may ask for anything in my name and I will do it."

Jesus, I'm putting my hope in that..so I hope you are out in that boat, waiting to grab my hand if I fall.

Alright. I don't know how this conveys my emotions but I am so drained right now. Two more weeks of intense training..then the campers come! Maybe my thoughts will come together later..but you won't know! muaha..

anyways, you are all on my heart and mind and I pray that God is doing BIG things in you. Tell me about them please :)

Love ya'll