If Grace is an ocean..

Wow. I don't know how to respond to life right now. Haaa..I haven't had a single moment to sit and think..so much has happened in the last two days..and all I want to do is rest. No time.
Friday: three exams, pack up my life, leave Abilene, go to good 'ole Grapevine. Saturday: shop all day for camp, dinner with the family, and now..I just finished packing.

I haven't really been able to decipher the mood I'm in, but the only word that describes it is Surreal. I feel like I'm experiencing jet lag but with more intensity and confusion. Nevertheless, the realization I'm coming to is that God gives us the Grace we need exactly when we need it. Even though I feel like I have no answers or clarity, He does and seems to speak the words that are needed-wisdom I couldn't muster if I tried. It is for this reason that I am so thankful I have had 1.5 days home before heading out. I have gotten the chance to encourage and share life with two friends that I haven't been able to do with that much confidence in quite some time. In both situations, God broke through the lies that I so easily believed and shined His light so bright.

More then ever, I am realizing that when we are weak, Jesus is made so strong. It's a strange concept. When I admit that I am weak and desperate without my Father, I am made victorious all the same. mmm..Grace. I love it, yet always struggle with allowing myself to sink in the ocean of Grace He provides. I won't lie.. I feel so unprepared for this summer. I don't think I fully understand that I am leaving tomorrow for THREE MONTHS. I don't really know what will happen but one thing i do expect is for God to shine in me. That His presence in me changes lives and I am going to bring Life. Not by my feeble mind but my God's Love & Power.

So here I am, learning to put my faith in You, Jesus. I am being stripped of my comfortable life and being taken on an adventure of complete dependency on Him.
I'm sick of talking about Him instead of talking TO Him. Of putting hope in an outcome instead of hope IN Him. I'm ready for my world to be rocked. Am I being a little too dramatic? Possibly. Okay..I have nothing else to say. But God does! :)

"To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul; in You I trust, O my God."

Psalm 25:1-2

keep claming Truth in your lives. When everything seems out of your control, trust that God is faithful always.

p.s. I wont have any cell phone service out there so if you care about me, you should write me! haha. but seriously. do it.

Camp Eagle
c/o Bridget Howe
6424 Hackberry Rd.
Rocksprings, TX 78880

Also..I just got skype so I can video chat on the weekends. ohhhh yes. Victory.